If today...

Hey guys. Hope your week has been good, i'm feeling so drained today. This week has been hectic, just doing so much work for uni, and also for my LMUS. Hopefully the workload lightens up a little bit, for now though, i'm looking forward to intervarsity sport on Sep10 ( YES EVERYONE SHOULD COME WATCH :D ) and the COMSOC Ball. ahh the ball. asking people to the ball seems reminiscent of yr 12 formal...but once you as someone you never know what could happen.

So today, what I want to talk about is regrets.  I'm sorry to the people that have given me many discussion topics, but this one came up today, and i just really REALLY have to address it, because its just the right question to address.  sorry ;(

anyways, so i was speaking to a mate today on the train, and being all Fight Club and all, i asked him, if this train was to crash now, would you have any regrets, and what would they be? this got us thinking, and it got me thinking too. what would my regrets be? would i have any? and what would my last words be?  My mate gave me quite some interesting responses, but they were his experiences not mine. But we both agreed that there would be three things that would leave us thinking "what if".

the first experience that i would miss was that for ONE SECOND i could taste true success.  To see other people in the city walking around happy, set, a worthwhile career and a solid relationship, it has always made me think, one day i will be like that. my greatest aspiracion. For just one second, if I could just sit down, turn to the bloke next to me and go "mate, I'm set" would be the greatest moment of my life.

the second would be that i had not visited any of the great architectural designs of churches in Europe, mainly Spain, Italy and Portugal.  Being Catholic, it has always  been my dream to go to Europe and visit as many of these amazing structures as i can.  If i could for even just ONE HOUR experience Mass inside St Peters Basilica, or even just sit there, it would make my life complete.  This is the regret of not having completed the pilgrimage of my religion, the core values that I uphold throughout my life yet having never delivered them to reality.  The regret of not having seen the greatest artworks God ever set mankind to create.

The last was that I had not, in my ONE and only LIFETIME loved, and been loved in return with my soul partner.  One day I will find them, one day, but til then, I still havent.  My regret was that I hadn't committed myself to anyone yet, my inability to move beyond my selfish needs and extend my spirit for someone else to share.  But then, it can't be rushed, the butterfly effect decrees that all things will come. So i guess i can't really say that I was inable, but i guess the core of my regret was that I didn't do the little things right for the butterfly effect to take care of it.

So how do we plan to avoid having regrets then? we can't. because theres no way we can predict when our last minute will be.  The only thing we can do is do the little things right for the butterfly effect to take place, and to live as unselfishly as we can, smiling, shining our true selves so that we dont get trapped in the funnel of darkness of materialism.

If this train were to derail, what would your regrets be?

Trevz.